Every Friday we unite for five minutes to write on one word. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on relief.
I spent so many days/weeks/months and years in anger.
I was wrapped in resentment and hostility.
I blamed them for everything, every struggle, every difficult decision.
I had an enemy, and I could clearly see their face.
The ones who were suppose to protect me, became those I was fighting against.
And I fought on.
I battled, all day everyday.
But that battle got me to where and who I am today.
I fought to prove myself, and came out stronger on the other side.
I fought to prove my strength, my ability, I am capable!
And then, slowly, with many helping hands, I let the anger go.
I started just living my life instead of proving my worth.
I allowed them back in, realizing they did the best they could, with what they had.
I just live now.
I just am now.
I know my worth, I know my courage, I know my ability.
I am just me, living my life, with the family I have created around me mixed with the family I was born into.
And the amount of weight that I stopped carrying, the amount of burden that is lifted, the amount of life I now get to live is the relief I feel.