Every Friday we unite for five minutes. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on dwell.
On the past and what I could have, should have done differently.
On my future and what I need to do for me, for them, for us.
On my life.
This word carries weight with me.
It carries a sense of regret and lingering over a period of time.
Because all it means is that I am overthinking,
I am stuck in yesterday,
I am struggling to move on,
And I am allowing negativity to wash over me,
We are closing out another year
and in a handful of weeks, we will start the new year.
Everyone's attempt at starting over
motivated for change.
But there are those of us that change is fear.
There are those of us that mourn any loss
no matter how small.
There are those of us that dwell
and therefore are stuck.
Stuck in their own stories,
the one they are telling themselves, no one else is writing that part for you.
Stuck in our own heads.
And we climb inside a really small jar
close the lid super tight and live inside this small world.
Do we know it's unhealthy?
Do we know it's all on us?
Do we know that no one else is putting this immense pressure on our shoulders?
Do we want it to be different?
And so, as the page turns and 2015 becomes 2016
I will work hard to not dwell.
Because it is not reflecting, it is lingering.
I will work to apologize for the bad and move on.
Because it is not regret for all, but for that moment.
I will work on change.
Because it is not all fearful and happens every moment of every day.
I will work on happy and I will #FocusOnTheGood.
Because there is so much good, as long as you don't dwell.