Every Friday we unite for five minutes. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on alone.
Go.
Never have I been around so many people.
Never have I had so many counting on me.
Never has my name been mentioned so many times in a day.
And yet, there are times that I feel I have never felt more alone.
Never has my house been so loud.
Never has the quiet been work to find.
Never have I had so many hugs, hands constantly pulling on me.
Never have I had so many I love yous.
And yet, there are times that I feel I have never felt more alone.
Never have my friends been this scattered.
Never have our relationships taken work to connect.
Never has saying hello filled me up and leaving left me empty.
Never has something happened and I had to wonder, who do I tell?
Never did they let me know that motherhood, adulthood, would feel so alone.
Never have I felt more comforted.
Never have I felt more alone.
Never have I felt more at peace.
Never have I felt more chaos.
Never have I felt more heartache.
Never have I felt more joy.
Never have I felt more loved.
Never have I felt more left behind.
Never have I felt more connected to me.
Never have I felt more lost.
Never have I felt more sure of what I was always meant to do.
Never have I questioned me more.
Never have I felt so much company.
Never have I felt more alone.
Stop.
