Every Friday we unite for five minutes. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on listen.
Go.
Lovies, mom isn't a very wu-wu person, I live much more in the practical. But over the last several years, I have stopped to really listen to the universe and figure out what it is trying to tell me. Or what it is trying to protect me from. Or what it is asking me to let go, or get over. Or what it is asking me to pay attention to. So, maybe that's wu-wu, maybe it's getting older, maybe it's setting up priorities and owning my life more, maybe it's giving up control and realizing I'm not in charge anyway, maybe I have been talking for so long that it's finally time to listen.
So, I am taking in the sounds of rain. I am watching the fall season land in NY with all of its glory. I am listening to my intuition tell me something is off. I am listening to you talk more, really connecting with you several times a day and listening all about your day. I am listening to what is important to you, right now and today vs yesterday. I am listening to our puppy when she is asking to be paid attention to or be run and played with. I am listening to my body when it is telling me it is tired. I am listening to my mind when it is telling me the same. I am listening to my feet, legs, arms, and muscles when they are telling me to stop fighting and running and climbing and pushing...instead, just take it in.
In my year of change, I have spent time listening to you universe. I am still a little rocky, shakey, and unsure of all you are trying to tell me. I am still trying to figure out if this is you talking or life just being life. I am still trying to figure out if I need to back off or show up harder. I am still trying to figure out how to be okay without being the tightly wound me. I am still trying to put it all together.
But lovies, I hear you too. I see the change in you when I changed. I see how much stronger we are, how little tension there is, how much more loving we can be. I see that you too needed to be heard and were asking me to listen and pay attention. I see that I needed to regroup, restructure and reprioritize. I'm listening lovies, I'm going to continue to do so.
Stop.
"I see that I needed to regroup, restructure and reprioritize." I see that attitude as good and rounding the bend, in a good way. I'm in the same season after deciding to finally lean into the better places. Work and performance aren't the goals in my life any longer. God, relationships, humility and the other fruits of the Spirit, it's time to allow those things to develop now. Great perspective! Thanks. Your FMF neighbor #7.
I'm listening to my body, here,
and it has so much to say;
comes the pain, all too severe
and things will not be OK.
I also listen to me heart
which tells me press on,
even though I fall apart
I've got to get things done.
I try to listen to my friends
but they tell me to retire
goals and dreams, but to what ends?
I'd rather raise them higher.
This is cancer's hard decline,
but there may yet be time to shine.
#1 at FMF this week
https://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2019/10/your-dying-spouse-680-god-of-love-and.html
Wow Andrew, this is so beautiful and powerful. You are strength and courage.
Good stuff! I'm practicing doing the same. I think step one boils down to just what you've said: relinquishing control. Thanks for sharing. (Fellow FMFer)
Great blog! I loved your perspective- I don’t always listen to my body or my dogs and cat or my husband when he is talking about things that excite him but I have no interest in... I don’t really listen to the universe and I am not really sure what that means but I am listening to you by reading your blog. Will you listen to me? I am number 20.