Every Friday we unite for five minutes to write on one word. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on pass.
I just have to get to the end of...
this budget cycle
Until it hits me, and it's always a hard hit,
I am watching my entire life pass me by.
I am just wishing it away.
It's happening less frequently now, I am much more aware.
As soon as I hear the words escaping I immediately take them back.
Because, this is my life.
These are our days, weeks and months.
This is what it all looks like.
The glorious, the gorgeous, the worried, the exhaustion, the work, the piles, the to dos.
This, all of this life, is ours
and I will no longer be a passerby.
No longer will I say "pass" to their request for my time, my attention, my motherhood.
No longer will we pass by a fun activity and I hope you didn't see it.
I want to be a part of this life, with each and every single one of you.
I want to be a part of this life, with you.
Wow - this is so great! I have a similar thought when I'm wishing for something to pass - I think about all that I'll have experienced by the time the wait is over!
My last day at my current job is on May 27. I keep wishing that May 27 will hurry up and get here - but in the meantime, my littlest one is just starting to walk. He'll probably be an expert walker by May 27... and if I rush to that date, then I'll miss all of those cute little toddles. My oldest is fascinated by the moon and the stars... How will I know that fascination will still be there by the end of next month?
So thank you for the reminder - although there are really difficult things going on around us, there are also some truly wonderful things that we'd be missing out on. I will focus on those!
This was amazing to read. You captured my every thought. While we are wishing it all away, we are literally missing the little toddles. We are missing the moon and stars, we are missing life. It's all in front of us, the good bad and ugly. It's our life, so take it all in, one breath at a time.