There is a spot inside of me.
We can call it small
We can call it large.
But it is where you began
and it holds every memory of you.
From the very beginning,
to today,
it is all of you.
And I cannot help but actually feel it's presence.
I feel it growing,
each time you have a new anything,
it grows with you.
And there are times that it physically hurts.
Because change and time and moving on and moving forward
all cause me some pain.
And there are times that it physically heals.
Because change and time and moving on and moving forward
all cause life to heal.
And there are times it is filled with so many tantrums that I cannot exist.
And there are times it is filled with so much wonderful you that I cannot control the joy.
What happens to you, happens to me.
That is just fact so let me say it again,
what happens to you, happens to me.
And in this spot, is where I hold it.
In this spot is where I feel the pain, the frustration, the joy, the love spill over.
I carried your heart, your being in this spot.
You rest your head there now.
I carried your life, your love there.
So rest your fears with me.
I carried your soul, your good, your tired, your limbs.
So rest your doubts with me.
I cannot wash you away.
I cannot forget your moments.
I cannot simply let you go.
We have always been connected.
We have always been together.
And it won't always be this way.
But for now, I see you as the heart beat on the screen.
I see you as the infant I nourished and rocked.
I see you as the toddler I watched waddle.
I see you as the baby that needed and wanted me.
I see you as the preschooler I dropped off
and the little peanut I put on a bus.
Because every part of you, started there and so every part of you remains, deep with me,
in this spot
that is forever ours.
