Childhoodtake2!

Every Friday we unite for five minutes to write on one word. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on journey.
Go.

I write about this word a lot don't I?
I feel that our story
this journey
and this one
our linked, connected, we are taking it together.
Even when we have to separate, we will be linked,
because we all started together.
Hand in hand
kissing noses
touching toes.

And although I realize there are four different journeys in there
it's so hard to pick each one out
because they are so woven
so layered
and almost dependent on the other.

I am at the brink of starting something brand new,
a brand new journey and rewriting my story.
I am at the bottom of this hill and although I can see the top, it is really far away.
And I am a little scared because what if I fall all the way back down?
Every time I look back, I get sad, and so bothered and irritated.
But even this journey, the one I have to do on my own, the one that should be very personal, isn't.
Because I feel that everything I do is for all of us
and advances us all forward.
Because that is family
that is how we all define family.
We won't leave a single person behind,
we will carry each other if someone is too tired.
We will all find the strength to push us through and keep walking, one foot in front of the other.
Even when all of us are out of line and out of step, we are still moving in the right direction
and willing us all forward.
Because we started on this road together and we will continue to move together, side by side and hand in hand.
Kissing noses and touching toes.

Stop.

Every Friday we unite for five minutes to write on one word. Only five minutes, that's all we get, that's all we have. And then, right where we are, no edits or second-thoughts, we publish those words. This week, we write on path.
Go

I wonder, should I go straight or take the next turn?
Am I headed down a road that I am too scared to cross, or should I push through this fear to get to the other side?
Am I on the right path?
For me, for you, for our family?
Am I headed in the right direction?
Am I the one in the lead and therefore our journey and road blocks fall on me,
or am I following you all blindly?
Am I on the right path
for all of us?

Change is difficult for some of us.
Being at a crossroad, that doesn't feel good.
And for a while, I felt so lost?
What journey am I on, who's journey am I on?
What path do I take, what is my next turn?
And once all of the pieces start to fall into place,
and excitement of the new and possibilities start to build,
and fire, a hum, comes back...
then I know and I am all in.
However, every step I take in that direction, every turn I make, I question myself again and again.
I have self doubt take over for a while
and wash over me.
And the advice I receive, all worries me too,
because I am a worrier, and there is so much at stake with every decision.
Very little is about just me, almost all things I touch effects us all.

Yes, I am ready.
I am ready for this road, this path.
I feel the universe screaming at me that it is time.
And I will take your hands, and lead the way.
Knowing I have my team
knowing that although I am in front, I am not alone.
Because the path I started down so many years ago has lead us to here and now.
Because it is not dark and filled with shadows.
But that also means we all need to keep moving, and take different twists and turns.
Our path is never what we thought it would be
but always worth the journey.

Stop.