I knew, when you were just a peanut and I was holding you from the inside.
I knew the day I sat holding my positive pregnancy test in hand.
Standing in the bathroom, tears running down both of our faces.
I knew before the ultrasound confirmed.
I knew before she turned to us and said, "you're having a girl".
I knew you were a baby girl.
I knew you were my daughter.
I didn't know what was ahead of me, I still don't.
All I knew is that this mom would have a daughter.
A girl turning woman.
On my quiet drive home, I placed my hand over you and I said your name, out loud, to myself.
"Anna, I'm your mom, can you hear me?"
And then, the song started to play.
I turned it up and sang you my first lullaby.
I heard how this song was being sung for you.
"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you.
And everything you do.
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow
You know you know I love you so
You know I love you so"
The tears wouldn't stop.
I tried to hug you as tight as I could.
We were half way there and soon, I would hold you on the outside.
Soon I would share you, with the entire world.
But, for the next 20 weeks, I was the one that got to rock you to sleep.
I would be the one to feed you, I would be the only person allowed to hold you.
We were together, two hearts in one body.
I carried your heart, and you heard mine from the inside.
That night, I asked your dad to put the song on your welcome to the world playlist.
I wanted it to be one of the first things you heard in the world.
I wanted my voice and that song to be your first memories.
I wanted you to know that the world sings for you
and all the things you do.
I wanted you to know that I came along and I jumped for you
oh what a thing to do.
I drew a line, I drew a line for you
and all the things you do.
"It's true
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for
And they were all yellow."
