We can find a way through it Cole. We can find a way through your frustration and anger. We can find a way to love.
We have already come so far and learned so much from each other.
You have learned words and are desperately trying to use your words instead of your tears of frustration. I have learned that sometimes love looks like frustration and angry two year old cries. Sometimes you are so upset that you don't even know why, you just want to cry. it. out.
You have learned joy in being outside and movement, I have learned that sometimes love makes you run towards and away from your family. Sometimes you make me run towards and away from us.
You have learned that you live to eat and that food can make your feet dance. I have learned that messy is a part of all of it. I have learned that messy comes with you. Sometimes messy means you love something so much you have to enjoy it with your whole face.
You have learned that life is challenging with so many frustrations and obstacles. I have learned that you need to work it out, you need to figure out how to take these baby steps in order to survive a two year old world.
There are times, there are moments, that I want to run. There are times and longer moments that I hurt from being apart from you. There are relationships like ours that pull and take, there are relationships like ours that will always be there for one another. There are relationships like ours that take you on a journey, with yourself, with you, and with the family. Relationships that challenge you and recreate your definition of family. There are relationships like ours that make me ache, and think about my reactions, and my temper. Relationships like ours that make me look at you in wonder. We are old and familiar but just getting started and learning. And each day, we grow a little more, get a little deeper.
It's not all simple. It's not as simple as I love you just because you came from me, it's so much more than that. I love you because you have redefined the word, I love you because you challenge me. I love you because you bring me so far from where I started and then you bring me back. I love you because you ache too.
You ache for attention, you ache for warmth and us. You ache for family, you ache for joy that lights up your face, makes your feet dance and makes you want to love something, with all of you.
I love you because you pull at me, you make me melt and harden and melt again.
But you and me together, we can do this. We can get through to the other side and that side will come with its own challenges, that side has its own fears, that side comes with its own moments of joy. But you and me together, we will get to the other side. Just don't let go, not yet anyway.